I will be away from blogging for a while. Not sure when I can come back.
On Monday, I had to have my mother taken to the hospital by ambulance. She was on the floor in her kitchen, not sure when she went down, but I talked to her on Saturday.
She may have had a small cognitive stroke, may have had a seizure due to swelling on the brain. But the big but is: WHY? Could be her cancer is back, which according to her doctor, isn't uncommon. So now, I have many many things to do, and a long way to go before I can really return to normal. Remember normal? Help me remember normal, cause I haven't had normal in a long time. Now normal is with heightened stress, waking in the middle of the night, and lots and lots of tears. It is hard to be the youngest. It is hard.
I have been at the hospital for most of the day every day since Monday. There are times wehn I leave, to get a cup of coffee, to go home to check the mail, but I go back, I feed her, so that she will eat. She told me last night that she would only eat for me, and I laughed, told her that that isn't a good thing, I couldn't be there for her breakfast time, that she needed to eat for the nurses and the nurses aides. There are lots and lots of moments of lucidity, with her, and for that I am thankful. She has told me that she loves me, which makes me cry. Right now, I am so sad, just so sad.
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You and your mom will be in our thoughts and prayers. Keep us posted and don't forget to take care of yourself.
Ralph
We're keeping you in our prayers. Let us know how things are going. We'll still be here when you return. Good Luck!
Cathy
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Oh, I'm so sorry Miki. It's so hard to try and balance all those things you need to do. I fully understand and will add you all to my prayer list. (((hugs)))
Prayers have been sent on behalf of all. You take care of yourself. It is so difficult to deal with this. We await what I hope is a good outcome. God will give you enough strength to deal with this. Just ask.
I am positive that prayers work.
Sorry to hear this latest news about your family. My prayers are with you. Take care.
Miki, I am here, too. So sorry this had to happen. My thoughts are with you at this difficult time. I am bundling up all the warmest most normal thoughts I can think of and sending them your way.
hey you hang in there
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