Fall and Feelings

Strange to "feel" the Autumnal weather. I really love this time of year. It is my favorite. I say this over and over again, but Autumn/ Fall, whatever you may call it, is it for me. It reminds me of so much, it makes me feel alive. It is odd for me to feel so alive at a time of year when we see the real signs of things dying right in front of us. The air feels different, the air looks different. I love the way the colors splash all over the place.

Yesterday, I took the camera out, I mean really out. I went for a ride, took pictures around town, and thought they would be ok. HOnestly not to toot my own horn, they are fantastic. I really was amazed at how the clouds looked, the water, the trees. It really just awed me, and I felt everything that was there. I was utterly alone, but was surrounded by sights and sounds that I had heard thousands of times. I heard the sounds again, I really felt the shivers from the chilly air. It made me feel good.

Yesterday was a day that I needed to feel good. It was a year to the date that I found my Mother on the floor and had to have her transported to the ER, never to return home again. It was a day that was exactly the same, weather wise, and it ran through me so fast and furious, that I needed not to be alone with myself. I didn't feel like being sad, I didn't feel like feeling anything, so, I took the camera and ran. I am glad that I did. Glad that I did.