Thursday, March 02, 2006

Family

Truthfully, I really don't know how to define family. Family can be you and you alone, it can be yourself and spouse, you your children, etc. It can also be a chosen family. I have several of those little tight knit groups. The first chosen family is that of the people that I went to High School with.....these are the folks that Ifirst got drunk with, that I snorted with when I laughed, and that shared in most of the important things in my life, while I was still forming. I get a phone call every now and again that just makes me laugh, cry or feel warm and fuzzy. These folks are the ones that make me feel that way. I am comforted to know that after all of these years it isn't about any single one of us, it is just about being us.
The second chosen family that I have are the folks that are a part of my son's baseball team. Never in my life had I thought that this group of strangers from many different places and walks of life could feel so good about each other. I know that I have mentioned this before, but I am astounded that there are these types of floks here on this earth who just care. Throughout this whole thing with Scott, these two groups, along with the folks that I was born to and married to, have been a bedrock of strength and support. To just hear, "How are you, " and know that they want a "real" answer, is so astounding! I absolutely Love all of these folks, who know exactly who they are!
My birth and married family have been the best too, they have supported us and talked to us and called and emailed, etc. They have wanted to know every little detail and every little thing the Docs have said done and wanted to do, it has helped to know that most of these folks are right around the corner to listen to us and to let us just get it all out. I have a sanctuary here at home, at my sisters' houses(Marge, if I could, I would run to you too, and you know it!) and with my friends and with my in laws too. I t has been hard to go down this road but to go it alone would have been too too much. I should also add that many of you guys out there have helped me through some pretty exhausting times and anxiety ridden times too! It is nice to know that the www had good people out surfing, not just the horribles that we read and hear about in the news.
I guess what I am trying to say is THANK YOU TO ALL AND EVERYONE WHO HAS TOUCHED MY LIFE IN THIS TRYING TIME. It has been a hard road to walk, but I haven't ever walked it alone, GOD gave me friends families and people to listen. Scott is going in on the 14th for the STC(stem cell transplant) and it will be the hardest 2 weeks of my life, I have to keep it together for the kids and myself, knowing that this is what is best and it is a bump in our road together.
Thanks, that is all.Just Thanks.

5 comments:

Cliff said...

I'm chuckling a bit here Miki. I just got home from a meeting. It was a fairly important meeting for me, and the county. I smiled to my self during the meeting because I got to thinking of You and Scott and your family and how I hoped it all went well, and the question they asked me during that time that my mind was somewhere else was a little, well alright, I don't know what they asked me. I was able to fake my way past it though. It really is funny how you get to know people differntly on the net than in person. You are able to pick up on personalities, and moods, and worries. Yes we do care how your life goes. Thanks for being you.

Roger Blackmore said...

You're right - cyberfriends are part of the bundle nowadays too.
And we do care - still praying for you all through this trying time.

Jamie Dawn said...

Love, support & genuine care really do carry us through hard times. It makes the burden a little lighter because you are able to share it with others. You & Scott & your kids bear the brunt of this terrible ordeal, but I'm so glad you find comfort from others.
March 14th is D-day, and you will have many people who will be thinking about & praying for Scott & your family, and those who will be right there with you to give you hugs & personal support.

Rachel said...

It's wonderful that you have so much support. In hard times it's amazing how many people want to help in any way they can. It's heartwarming to know that they are there. So great you have so much support with family and friends. Scott and all of you are in my prayers.

JUST A MOM said...

Still praying and knowing you are doing as good as you can. Remember to have soem down time just for YOU!!!!!!